My name is Cheri Linehan. I am a 46 year old woman who has fought, wrestled, begged, pleaded, conquered, and submitted to food. Since I was 6 years old a large majority of my inner thoughts focused around food and the comfort and pain it brought me. Food has always been my drug of choice although I have used others, nothing has been quite as soothing as food.
Therefore it is not surprising then that I developed a life threatening chronic illness that dealt with my metabolism, pituitary, and it's inability to function. I have binged, purged, dieted, used laxatives, restricted my food, exercised to excess and quite literally starved myself all in a attempt to conquer my weight.
Often people who look at me at first glance think I am weak because of my weight. What they don't know the depths of restriction, pain, agony, and strength of will I have exhibited in a attempt to look just like them.
I used to believe that my weight and it's side effects were a curse against me. I now realize that my weight is part of my life's journey any my purpose. I no longer believe I have to conquer my weight to make my body submit to my will. I now understand that the thing that I thought was my enemy is now my savior. I realize now that food will heal me. I now know that I am worthy of healing.
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