Today is my 48th birthday. I have found that I am not into birthdays very much any more. It is lovely to be acknowledged, especially on facebook ;-). I am blessed to have experience growing up in a family where birthdays were a big celebration. I remember waking up in the morning of my birthday with pure excitement for what the day would bring. Now, I tend to look at the passing years in reflection where I have been and where I am going.
This year I feel as if I am being reborn. They say that we grow most of our body anew every 7-15 years. I feel as if I am in the end of one of those cycles. I am rebirthed ready to have a different experience then I have had before.
I was talking to a friend today and I had a dawning realisation that food addiction just like any addiction is only healed when you process and go through the pain. My constant thought process has always been how to get around the pain.
With every new fad diet, every resolution, and every exercise plan my goal was to win the battle of fat. I would conquer it! I see now that all that energy, pain, and frustration was a distraction of what was true. The simple truth was I had experienced pain and I was denying that experience. I refused that process because it was too scary. It was much easier to focus on calories, restriction plans, and my lack of character that made me fat.
I couldn't get to where I wanted to go without going through it. I had to acknowledge my truth, sit in it, experience it, learn from it, and then let it go. I know this is amazingly simple. It also was extremely difficult.
Today on my first day of my 48th year I am so thankful and grateful to have this knowledge and experience. Much love to all, Cheri
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